[[The latest entry is so smeared and messy that it is illegible. The journal is freshly tattered, stained deeply with blue blood and nearly torn in half. It lies just outside of Plaguewood in the Eastern Plaguelands, amidst shreds of armor and worn, discarded weapons.]]

Last night I had a dream that me and Fei adopted a kid. It was a draenei kid and it was weird because it was pretty realistic which is even more weird because I hardly ever have dreams. I think it was a boy but I can't remember. I remember Fei was really happy and I sort of was too. But the thought of having a kid scares me. We arent even married yet.

I should probably take a vacation soon. Fei keeps telling me to. I spend most of my time carrying smithing supplies back and forth between Stormwind and Ironforge. I pulled something in my lower back today though so if thats too sore tomorrow I dunno if I can work. I guess we have enough money to cushion us if I have to take a few days off. Maybe I will just sleep in tomorrow.

Fei isnt happy working at the library anymore but she doesnt know what else she wants to do. I told her she should be a teacher at the orphanage because I think she would like that and I think she might try to do that now. I dont know how Id like hanging out with a bunch of kids a lot but as long as she is happy.

Oh I went out drinking with Nestul the other night too and there was this hooker we found who was bitching about my sideburns. Who the hell even cares about other peoples facial hair I mean really. Anyways Nestul got really wasted and started talking about having sex with his axe and shield so I decided to leave. What a fucking weirdo

Im gonna go to bed.

The other day I went to Nagrand and saw Nestul and there was a night elf hitting on him and it was a guy. It was so funny I went and got Mark to watch but then we ended up getting into a fight and Nestul bruised my shin and Mark broke my nose. Anyways it was worth it.

Except today I tried to kiss Fei and when my nose touched her face it was like somebody stabbing me.

The other day when I was trying to beat up Mark Kovorkas came by and started laughing at her. I felt kinda bad cause shes his daughter so I stopped but she didnt really seem to care. She started going on about crossbow gauntlets or something and begging him to make them for her and by that time Fei showed up. So that was kinda funny to watch while Fei read. Eventually they sorta got into a fight and then Kovor said he would make her some explosives. And then Mark got real excited. She should probably grow up some time.

I talked to Fei about getting married and she seemed shocked and said she figured I didnt want to cause I didnt talk about it much. So thats figured out. She wants to get married at the cathedral in Stormwind I think but I dont want a big wedding. I just want something small and quiet and hopefully in the middle of nowhere so not many people will walk by and stop.

Anyways I told Fei that I didnt know if humans did marriages with people that are the same gender and she got confused. I dont even know if many draenei will. Whatever Mark is a paladin she can probably do it. Though that would suck and Im pretty sure her marrying us would be more of a curse than anything. Maybe Keilur HA HA yeah right.

I took Fei to Tanaris today to meet Nestul since I had to go down there and help him with something anyways. They got along pretty good though he spent most of the time in that spectral wolf thing he does. At first Fei thought I bought her a new dog. A ghost dog. But she was excited when she found out that it was my brother. I cant believe she wants more pets. We have like five now.

Its real late. Im gonna go back to bed before Fei wakes up and starts worrying.

I love Feirna so much

I cant sleep again. Guess I will write in here.

Fei made me talk to her mom about us. As a couple I mean. So that was super awkward I mean first I had to find her and then I had to figure out how to bring it up. I ended up just telling her that I love her daughter and she means a lot to me and Id do anything to keep her safe and she either didnt believe me or didnt care because I think she was pretty mad. She wasnt really mean but she got really stiff and quiet and told me she had to go. So I hope she doesnt get mad at Fei and I hope she doesnt think Im some creepy old pervert. Though I would probably think I was some creepy old pervert if I was looking at this and I wasnt me.

I do love Fei though. I mean yeah Im attracted to her but its not just about the sex. I really like her a lot and I love her too and if I was just about the sex and I didnt like her I think she woul

I dunno. I spent the day with Fei today and I havent seen her mom since. We had a good time today just relaxing for the most part. we sorta got in a fight but I dont really remember what it was about. Anyways we came home and made up and had the best sex we a really good time.

She is asleep now. I am really exausted but Im not tired. Or I cant sleep I guess. She is really cute when she is all sprawled out all tired over the covers like that. Its hard to sleep because I just like to look at her.

Shes so young

What the FUCK

So today after taking a stab at tempest keep Feirna comes up to me and is like "Nat I have a surprise for you! I have someone I want you to meet" so okay I figure it is just an old friend of hers or something or a new animal or whatever. Anyways she wouldnt tell me no matter how many times I asked and she kept saying we had to go to exodar to see it but what the hell could be in exodar? Anyways she takes me there and we go into the inn room and theres this chick sitting on the bed like scribbling in some notebook and at first I was like "Fei is cheating on me?" in my head but then when I looked closer it sorta looked like Fei and IT WAS FUCKING FEI'S MOM

Ok one

I thought her parents were dead. So I have been taking care of this girl under that assumption when theyre not actually dead so basically I stole a kid. ALSO two is that shes a fucking kid and Ive been fucking her and shes a kid. How am I supposed to explain that to her mom "Hi I took your daughter. Also I fucked her. Also took her virginity. Also Im also a chick."

Ok so anyways I sort of am overreacting I guess. She was nice enough but I dont think she realizes me and Fei are an item. Like Fei told her I was taking care of her and I helped her get better after the crash but I really get the feeling she doesnt know why we still live together. I think I should probably take her aside some time tomorrrow and tell her because I doubt Fei will but she needs to know. And I really dont wanna get on her bad side because she was actually pretty nice. Her name was Leyaleiva I think. I dont know how to spell it but I guess that doesnt matter.

I dont like sleeping on this couch. My legs are way too fucking long. I guess thats another reason I should tell her about me and Fei.

Well now I can say I have spent 5 hours of my life killing ogres for the jewelry they wear. I dont even know why they want those beads in the first place. I bet Moibff takes them home and puts them all on and dances around because he's a pretty lady. What a fucker. But whatever at least Feirna is happy with her talbuk. I just hope it behaves. Sometimes talbuk can be violent. I remember that one time when me and Mark were kids and she dared me to throw a rock at one of the stags. Never do that.

Last night when I was standing around in Shattrath with Fei this lady (draenei) walks up to us and she had dark skin and was wearing goggles. Anyways she said she saw Feirna once in Nagrand a few months ago so whatever she asked her for her name. And then she started giving me this look and then asked for my name and Fei told her. And Fei gave me the look so I had to be nice so I said hi and she said her name was Bodeeca or something? Then the lady started getting really creepy and being all like "Its a pleasure to finally know your name" and shit. And then out of nowhere she just kneeled down and held her head like she was sick or something. Anyways I started laughing and Feirna got mad at me. So I stopped and she asked the lady what was wrong. And she said something about not being used to this new life yet and then said something about how a big part of her has been exorcised?

What the fuck. For one what the fuck is she talking about. For two who walks up to total strangers and just tells them stuff? "Hi person I dont know my name is Nat and I like to bang my girlfriend on the kitchen counter." So okay I just asked her if she made a habit of telling complete strangers random facts about themselves and she got all pissy and said "maybe Im just stupid" and flew away on her gyrocopter thing.

SERIOUSLY WHAT am I just a huge fucking loser magnet or some shit? Do I have a sign on my face that is like "Attention freaks come to this person and be stupid at them also tell them they are beautiful even though they are not"

Whatever fuck people.

Lot of stuff happened today.

This human girl. She walked up to me and tried to give me flowers and told me I was beautiful and I shouldnt frown because of my pretty face. What the fuck is that? When i saw Mark later I hit her because I know she put her up to it but she just called me a bitch and denied it. Anyways she talked me into helping her defend the arathi basin for a while but I got bored and left. Whatever. Anyways later when I was in Stormwind with Feirna she met this human person named Jana or something. And the humn taught her how to fish and Fei made me be nice to her but I didnt like her. Humans smell so bad.

We did some shit with dragons in shadowmoon valley too. And at some point I had this fel orc and this pit lord wailing on me and the same time. Holy shit seriously I have a lot of bruises. The dragons told us to go to this place and when we got there we turned into fel orcs what the fuck!!! Seriously and my gryphon turned into a dragon! What is that!!! Fei was flirting with me when she was an orc and I think I almost puked.

Well we are back home so thats good. I dont have to worry about being stabbed in the face by Feirnas cheek spikes or whatever the hell she had on that ledge. Fuck dragons seriously fuck them

Well Im gonna go I think Fei is still having a bath 

Nestul isnt dead. I saw him yesterday when I had to go by exodar for something. Anyways apparently he is studying shaman things now so I guess thats better than paladin bullshit Keilur does. I wonder if any more of my family is gonna pop outta nowhere.

Speaking of popping outta nowhere I saw Myrrh today and she stopped to talk to me. She wanted romance advice why would she come to me for romance advice. I cant even hold a conversation without getting pissed and leaving. Anyway apparently she is getting married and doesnt want to or something I dont know. She tried to hug me but I said no. Fuck no. And then she asked me if I wanted to go to her wedding and I left.

Then later I saw that Kalan girl or whatever cause her pet cat run up to me again. Shes pretty nice I guess but I feel bad because I am probably coming off as a bitch. I know Fei tells me to be nicer all the time but I guess I dont really know how. She left pretty quick and it was probably my fault but I guess its not something I should worry about.

Im gonna go Feirnas asleep already and I dunno why Im up this late.